?

thank you

2009-02-22T18:41:00.002+08:00

thank you friends thank you for supporting
i promise to be strong
I AM GOING TO RECOVER
u all wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

first of all
thank you daddy for always trying your best to help me
thank you mummy for always comforting me
thank you ping cheng for ur patients and cares
thank you angel Jiejie for always being caring and understanding
thank you mickey my bao bei for always be there for me
thank you eu chuan for every and everyeverything
thank you xue min, li yang, xiao rei, mels, dong ying, jia li, xiao yy, eveeve, sarah, justin, weiyuan, gideon, wilson and ivan for the msgs and cares

I LOVE YOU ALL LARRRR

Fear

2009-02-17T05:22:00.003+08:00

Yes, why do i still wanna wait?ugly. i think im ugly at time, im not the strong girl anymore, im weak, im telling myself to be independant and i tried i really tried. its confusing. i dun wanna be the burden of a single person.wat i wanted is a simple happy life. no more i mean NOTHING. overwhelmed with questions, i struggled. what if u cant take it after seeing me? i've lost all my confidence and strength throughout the battles. the feeling of my innerself is never known. smile to smile everyday, to numb the brain cells and to forget the past. i appreciate everything from u,u and u. be strong?can i?

wednesday is coming!

2008-11-25T06:10:00.002+08:00

sorryyy for not updating for soo long time:)
was lazying around and didnt have the mood to blog

oww tomorrow
results time
so scared la haiyorr
seriously i think i did badly for the finals:(

anyway my holiday was quite ermmm..
monday-
tuesday-act mum to go for her singing class -new jazz
wednesday- pbc meeting -brighton -music kaki
thursday -rehearsal for dancing
friday -rehearsal for dancing
im still planning for art classssss
swimming:)

currently-very-miss list:
mr panda wilee aka mickey zhizhi eveeve kaykay jaslyn minmin reirei chinwei jonas aka rabbit julian aka cookie zaky aka fried chicken suli desmund tortoise ray dongying dearie sushen elay~~~

cs gaigai

2008-11-13T22:30:00.006+08:00

today went out with my mickey

i was late~ as usual

bought a movie ticket for madagascar2

ended up walking around at cs

mickey taught me to use the ticket for next time

so bad rite!!

we went summer for lunch

met gideon reirei and eehong

then went for neo

shopped for so long without buying anything

lousy right

later we met lisa and mel at ground floor

some aids donation thinggy

bought 2 nail polishes from skin food before heading home

overall

had fun with my mickey

i love her:)

battle

2008-10-13T05:51:00.002+08:00

woke up at 5am today
yesterday slept at 8+ lol
aiyooo so many things to do but so little time
bro going back kl tonight:(
sigh
i think i will be updating after the finals
all the best to pmr fello
all the best to spm ppl
and all the best to the form 4s
im really worried abt the coming exams
blah

tag

2008-10-01T23:11:00.002+08:00

tagged by angel jiejie

Simple Rules:
1. Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
2. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
3. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

number one
i love dancing. beloved teacher and friends at the studio. its just the feeling. cannot be described

number two
i am not good at expressing myself. sometimes i dont think i know me

number three
i am stubborn. a stubborn donkey

number four
i love baking. i read recipes

number five
i am a lazy person. i read and reply msgs only when im in the mood

number six
i am not good at controlling my emotion. my mood is like the weather. now u see me with the brightest smile and then u see me crying at the corner

number seven
i get broken easily. once broken cannot be fixed. so dun try

number eight
i love my family and friends. they are the best. without them im simply nothing

i tag
baobei aka mickey
zhi
tan
minn
rei
jaslyn
eveeve
kay

froggie

2008-09-28T22:34:00.009+08:00

[26.09.08]

we had frog dissection during our bio lesson

it was indeed an evil task for us to commit a murder but everyone was joyfully overwhelmed by the disgust of froggie

the fantastic six lol

(from the left: zaky desmund jonas me julian and zhi)

do i miss my long hair?

ATTENTION: children below the age of 18 please get urself underguidanced before viewing the photos below

mrs. frog before inserting the chloroform-ed cotton wool

then it was pinned

julian: spider man

it was cut at the first layer

ouch

batman

sixpack

cutting of second layer. intestine popped out

tadda

conclusion: the frog is dead

love

2008-09-26T05:59:00.003+08:00

i got these drawings from my bros blog

found it extraordinary cute

his first attempt

second attempt after refering

toy refered

'life is short'

a phrase that always being spoken by people

i will stand strong

and thats the last promise i made to myself

have faith in yourself and nothing can bring u down to a fail

i love my family and friends



2008-09-21T17:23:00.002+08:00

wth is going on with me
stop ur tears bhm
despite the fact that im standing all alone

tag

2008-09-20T23:05:00.002+08:00

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
RULE #2 Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged by xuemin:)

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
depends on wat he did

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to be a billionare?

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
julian goh

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
buy everything i wan..buy my family everthing they want

5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
i dun think so.anyway im so deep in love with miss tee

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
loving=being loved

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
idk.it can be really long.but i get tired at times

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
oh no

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
a handsome rich and cute actor:)

10. Will you invite for Ex bf/gf to your wedding dinner?
haha why not

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
beautiful:) and TALLER

12. What's your fear?
too many to list

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
pretty and you mei li~

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
:)

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
drink water

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
depends

17. What is your dream wedding?

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
depends..i do forgive..but forget?

19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
watever..just dun go ai mei

20.What would you do if your partner is in love with someone else?
gth

List 6 people to tag
you
-
-
-
-
-

happy birthday

2008-09-10T18:56:00.002+08:00

big bithday shoutout to MISS TEE WILEE

happy birthday bao bei

i love u!!!!!!!!!!!!hugs:)

just came back from brighton

the class was stupid but fun la

exam exam everyone jia you k!

love is a promise, love is a souvenir, once given never forgotten, never let it disappear.

merdeka

2008-08-31T22:37:00.002+08:00

hahahahaha
why am i laughing so much
cant stop smiling reading msg from trinity
hahahahaha
thank you teacher thankyou thankyou thankyou

went fyhs yesterday
damn u joe damn u
u broke ur promises
but never mind
we saw lion
lol
met some of my primary sch friends

happy birthday malaysia
happy birthday raymond lim
appreciate the egg tarts i made k

tomorrow holiday yay

sunday ow my

2008-08-26T20:09:00.002+08:00

tuesday that means left 1 2 3 4 days
i mean 4 days to the audition
today was fun but i didnt do well
reached funfit at 5.30+
late as usual
met eveeve and kaykaykay:)
teacher asked me not to get on nerves for the audition
and i can feel the stress munching my cells
school was ok
sejarah was bored
and mr rabbit tan
u are playful childish and short
u cant drive as well
dun worry tts our secret
no one knows ok
no one

thursday

2008-08-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

dancing was fun and funny
teacher was muscular and thin
yingyu was cute and cute

x

treat people the way u wan people to treat u back
appreciate the love from the one who cares
never take people for granted
there's a limit for everthing
once one gets frustrated
there will never be a back to the past

shut up

audition

2008-08-19T19:35:00.004+08:00

omg omg omg omg omg

omg omg omg omg

audition is coming!!!!!!!!!!!
omg omg
audition
omg omg omg
audition
omg omg omg

audition
omg omg omg omg

audition
omg omg omg

audition

omg omg omg

omg omg omg

omg omg

OMG

问答

2008-08-18T09:27:00.003+08:00

从小微部落找到的

點到必填，
不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷
請老實的回答每一個問題
不行擅自塗改題目
寫完請點10位小朋友，
不可不點點完後請通知那10位小朋友他被點到了

[壹]. 個人題-10題

[01] 你叫什麼: 文慧梅

[02] 你的綽號: bon. bonbon. ahbon

[03] 你的血型: 0型

[04] 你的星座: 牧羊座

[05] 你是男還是女: 女

[06] 你幾歲: 16

[07] 你住哪裡: JB

[08] 你的學校: SSI

[09] 你有沒有手機: 有

[10] 承上,那是多少: ?

[貳]. 朋友題-10題

[11] 你最要好的朋友(限1個): 郑玮梨

[12] 你最討厭的人(限1個): 没有

[13] 你最正的女性朋友(限1個): 莉萍

[14] 你最帥的男性朋友(限1個):爸爸:)

[15] 什麼樣的女生你最討厭: 做作

[16] 什麼樣的男生你最討厭: 爱吹牛讲骗话

[17] 你的好朋友有誰(不限): 梨芝......................................

[18] 你經常和哪位朋友出去: 妈妈

[19] 你身邊最憨的朋友(限1個,不能自己):

[20] 你身邊最可愛的朋友(限1個): 盈毓

[參]. 感情題-15題

[21] 你有沒有喜歡的人: 有

[22] 如果有,那他叫什麼: 不跟你讲

[23] 如果沒有,那你希望什麼時候有另一半: 顺其自然

[24] 到目前為止,你跟多少人告白過:

25] 到目前為止,你被多少人告白過：没有算

[26] 到目前為止,你交過多少個男/女朋友:

[27] 你現在有另一半嗎: 没有

[28] 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣: 狂笑

[29] 你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎: 不会

[30] 你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人: 不要问我

31] 你跟你的另一半牽手過嗎:

[32] 你跟你的另一半抱或親過嗎:

[33] 你跟異性牽手過嗎: 有.小学排队的时候

[34] 是誰,你們什麼關係: 朋友

[35] 現在有人在追你嗎:

[肆]. 混合題-10題

[36] 如果有天,好朋友離你而去: 伤心

[37] 如果有天,好朋友背叛你,你會怎樣：怪自己

[38] 如果有天,好朋友對你喜新厭舊了,你會怎樣: 伤心　

[39] 如果你很受不了你的父母,你會離家出走嗎: 绝对不会

[40] 你上課認真嗎: 哈问老师

[41] 你上課都在做什麼: 看情形　

[42] 你功課好不好: 不烂　

[43] 你打開電腦都在幹麻: friendster + blog

[44] 你的即時通裡有多少個同性: 没算

[45] 你的即時通裡有多少個異性: 没算

[伍]. 兇手題-10題.

[46] 傳給你這份問卷的人是誰:

[47] 這個人對你好不好:

[48] 這個人是你的誰: 　

[49] 你有喜歡過這個人嗎:

[50] 你們認識多久了:

[51] 這個人是怎樣的人: 　

[52] 這個人正/帥嗎:

[53] 這個人有沒有喜歡過你:

[54] 這個人跟你有沒有在一起過:

[55] 萬一你喜歡這個人,你會怎麼辦:

[陸]. 聯想題-10題.

[56] 說到正妹你會想到誰: eveeve

[57] 說到帥哥你會想到誰: 不告诉你

[58] 說到憨你會想到誰: ?

[59] 說到白癡你會想到誰: 某人

[60] 說到暗戀你會想到誰:

[61] 說到愛出去玩你會想到誰:

[62] 說到聰明鬼你會想到：慧芝

[63] 說到无聊仔你會想到誰: wei jian

[64] 說到笑點低你會想到誰：

[65] 說到愛笑你會想到誰: 婶婶　

[柒]. 學校題-11題.

[66] 你的班導是誰: 陈兔子

[67] 你的座位是第幾排第幾個:右边第二排后面算起第二个　

[68] 你最喜歡的老師是誰: 英文老师

[69] 你的英文好嗎: 中等

[70] 你的體育好嗎:

[71] 你的數學好嗎: 不算好

[72] 你喜不喜歡你的校长: 不喜欢

[73] 你的學校好看嗎: 丑到一种程度

[74] 你的班級是: 4BIJAK

[75] 你的班級在幾樓: 一楼

[捌]. 點名題-10題
wilee - huizhi - jiali - eveeve - kaykaykay - floflo - liyin - angel - ping cheng - you

tagged by kaykaykay

2008-08-18T00:01:00.002+08:00

*tag 7 person after survey.

1.what is your fav chocolate?im not a choco addict

2.what is your 3 fav colour?black pink white

3.who is the last person u talked to.?mummy

4.who is the last person u msged?eu chuan

5.who is the first person u talked to when u woke up today?mummy

6.who is the first person u msged when u woke up today?yao ping

7.how many msges u recieved when u woke up today?7

8.who msged you when u woke up today?raymond tommy yao ping wei yuan wei jian han ying corn..sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyy

9.who do u wanna talk to now?

10.who do u wanna see right now?

11.why do u wanna see that person now?i think i miss that person

12.what relationship are u with that person u wanna see now?friends

13.if u could hug someone now. who will it be?wilee

14.what are u doing now?watching tv

15.what colour shirt are u wearing now?white

16.are u attached?single

17.anyone u like?yes

18.who do u like?humans

19.what phone are u using?nokia

20.how much money do u have in ur wallet now?i din count

21.what do u love looking at?mirror

22.who is the last guy u hugged?

23.if u can choose to do something now. what would u do?i dunno

24.how are u feeling now?stupid

25.if u can turn back time 3 times. where/when will it be?
-1 year old:innocent stupid and carefree
-
-

26.who are u thinking of?him

27.what is the 3 thing u want to forget?
-the past
-
-

28.who makes u happy?wilee him

29.what is next to you?i dunno

30.last show u watched?shi shang wan jia

31.how many people are u talking to now? (msg,msn,call,live)msn-0,msg-0,call-0,live-0.

32.if u can change something in ur life.. what will it be?no idea

33.do u have pets?no

34.what do u feel like eating now?what can i eat at this odd hour

35.who are the 7 people u tag?
wilee tan dongying gideon jaslyn jiali n u

2008-08-16T15:01:00.001+08:00

under construction..byebye :)

2008-08-16T00:46:00.002+08:00

holiday i love holiday

today was an emo day
why
i dunno and i will never know
coz i dun understand me at all
standing on the same spot as yesterday
difficult decisions to be made
an answer is what im looking for

i love my classmates :)
thank u all so much

tag

2008-08-15T16:42:00.003+08:00

tagged by eveeve :)

1. Where is your cell phone?in my room
2. Your significant other?
3. Your hair?short and weird
4. Your mother?is the best mummy
5. Your father?is the best daddy
6. Your favorite thing?dunno
7. Your dream last night?
8. Your favorite drink?hot sky juice
9. Your dream/goal?to do well in all exams
10. The room you’re in?living room
11. Your hobby?swimming dancing tv
12. Your fear?fear of guessing wat ppl are thinking
13. Where do you want to be in six years?somewhere peaceful
14. What you’re not?im not good at controlling everthing of me
15. Muffins?ok?
16. One of your wish list items?
17. Where you grew up?jbjb
18. The last thing you did?talk to mummy
19. What are you wearing?bikini?lol
20. Favorite gadget?
21. Your pets?is my bolster a pet
22. Your computer?no comment
23. Your mood?lol
24. Missing someone?i shouldnt
25. Your car?im a carless girl
26. Something you’re not wearing?ear rings
27. Favourite store?
28. Like someone?i like humans
29. Your favourite colour?black baby pink white
30. When is the last time you laughed?early in the morning
31. Last time you cried?few hours ago --
i tag: wilee, hui zhi, tan, jia li, jaslyn and sharon :)

why

2008-08-12T21:53:00.003+08:00

its stupid
i seriously think that i dont know me
sometimes i think i understand my friends better than me
comparing myself to the people around
i feel a tip of tininess
useless can best be used to describe me
im lost
save me

TO MISS CHAN

2008-08-12T14:07:00.002+08:00

TO MISS CHAN:
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY DEARIE AND I WANNA TELL U THAT U HAVE GROWN ONE YEAR OLDER:)
HOPE U LIKE THE PRESENT FROM WILEE AND ME ~

tag

2008-08-11T14:14:00.004+08:00

got this from kaykaykay's blog :)

Starting time: 2.15pm
Name: Bon hui mei
Sisters: o
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: 4/5
Height: 156
Where do you live: jb
Favourite drinks: sky juice
Favourite breakfast: bread + eggy + soymilk
Have you ever been on a plane?: ya
Swam in the ocean: no
Fallen asleep at school: yes!
Broken someone's heart: i guess
Fell off your chair: yes
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: ya
Saved e-mails: no
What is your room like: messy messy and messy
What's right beside you: hua er jie niu lol
What is the last thing you ate: biscuit
Ever had chicken pox: yes and guess WHAT is on my cheek
Sore throat: ya
Stitches: no
Broken nose: no
Do you believe in love at first sight: maybe
Like picnics: no
Who was were the last person people you danced with: my imaginary friend
Last made you smile: :)
You last yelled at: long time no yell!
Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: :)
Kissed anyone: no
Get sick: im healthy
Talk to an ex: no
Miss someone: yes
Eat: yes
Best feeling in the world: be loved
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: no
What's under your bed: tell me there's ntg
Who do you really hate: no people
What time is it now?: 2.27pm
Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: yes
Do you want children: i love kids
Do you smile often: maybe
Do you like your hand-writing: yes
Are your toe nails painted: yes
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: noone
What color shirt are you wearing now: sch u
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: swimming?
I can't wait till: 16 Aug
When did you cry last: few weeks ago
Are you a friendly person: maybe
Do you have any pets: no
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: ?
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: ow leer
Do you sleep with the TV on?: i did
What are you doing right now?: what else
Have you ever crawled through a window?: no
Can you handle the truth?: sometimes
Are you too forgiving?: erm
Are you closer to your mother or father?: samee
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: wilee
How many people can you say you've really loved?: uncountable
Do you eat healthy?: no
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: no
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: yes
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: :)
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: quiet
Are you confident?: im not
*5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
5 things on my to-do list today:
1. hw
2. do mm
3. call someone
4. swim
5. go pasar malam
5 snacks I enjoy:
1. biscuit
2. almond
3. almond
4. almond
5. almond
5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. buy my family everthing they want
2. go makan angin
3. jump
4.
5.
5 of my bad habits:
1. shy
2. lazy
3. stubborn
4. stupid
5. emotional
5 people I tag:
1. wilee
2. hui zhi
3. tan
4. dong ying~
5. people who just read this:)

对不起

2008-08-05T04:53:00.003+08:00

正如我所说
做人我们要懂得珍惜爱惜疼爱自己的人
不然
后悔来不急
懂没
我是个很自私的人
我不是一个容易醒悟的人
我总是会忽略别人的感受
一堆一堆没有实现的承诺
我只想说
对不起
哎
有没有太迟
我在乎的
真的
我只是不懂怎样表现出来

update!

2008-08-02T20:20:00.003+08:00

ok today i saw nothing and i heard nothing
im currently blind and deaf
ive grave doubt about things and people around me
the feeling is as nice as swimming in a mud-bath full of smelly shit
pretending to be calm and steady and happy when im not
tt's my duty and my job

hrmm ntg much is up lately
will update real soon

2008-07-24T22:20:00.002+08:00

沉默是金
是这样吗
不一定
沉默给人有思考的空间
沉默有把大事化小事的功能
沉默能避免不必要的尴尬场面
可是
沉默让人有距离感
沉默让人觉得生疏
沉默让人开始猜疑
沉默让人不安

每次要做个决定
一个小小的决定
很小很小很小的决定
都要忧郁很久
很烂
是不
很婆妈
每次下定决心
讲要怎样怎样
又不懂怎样
然后又变回以前那样
就是很烂
期待宽中校庆啦
和宝贝梨一样
不可以让自己失望
要争口大气
为自己中学四大年的烂生涯争气

做人呢
我们要懂得珍惜人
不要等到人家累了烦了不在了
才在那边吵
在那边后悔
在那边讲早知道早知道
可是人往往都是酱
本性啊
有没有

最近比较勤练舞
老师说比以前进步了
有开心到
就很在乎老师的话
为什么
不要问我
因为我不懂
FUSION OPEN DAY 过了
学了很多
每个人感情也变好很多
好事啦

又词穷了

我要加油
应该是加水
油涨价有没有
UNCLE GARY 的大道理

2008-07-17T09:18:00.000+08:00

furious 10 jia you!

nu li

2008-07-16T13:41:00.002+08:00

kao shi wan le

zhong yu

tiao wu

zhong yu you shi jian lian wu le

bai tuo zhe ge li bai tian jiu yao biao yan le hai zhe me luan

hen lan de wo

shi bu

zuo tian tiao wu hou gan chu hen shen

li ping li ping li ping

ni hen bang la

zhen de

wo shuo zhen de

zhe shi wo nei xin de hua

xie xie ni rang wo jue de wo ying gai zuo ge qin lao de ren

wo hui nu li de

zhen de

yi ding hui zuo dao zui hao

bai wu wan shang hai yao qu studio

ba dian dao bu dong ji dian

li ping jiang shi er dian

tiao si

jiang qi lai wo zhen de ying gai xing wu le

bu ke yi rang ta men shi wang

yao gai diao lan duo de xi guan

zong zhi jiu shi yao nu li

ying wei tian xia mei you bai chi de wu can

wo shuo bai chi

bu shi bai chi

hen ben you mei you

ni bu yong jiang

ying wei wo hen qing chu zhi dao

zong zhi xian zai jiu yao ba wu lian hao ba suo you dong xi wang ji

en hai you

zhe ji tian de wo

hao xiang zhen de hen qing xing

zhen ge tou nao chu le kao shi hai shi kao shi

mei you qi ta dong xi

sui ran wo bu zhi dao fa sheng le shen me shi

ke shi wo zhi dao you shi qing fa sheng

bu hao de shi

wo xiang qing chu le

zhe ci shi zhen de

wo jiang zhen de

ying wei zhe zhong dong xi shi wo bu neng jue ding de

zhe ji ge yue wo you kuai le dao

zhen de

ye you lei dao

sui ran you hen duo shi hou ta hen ling ren shi wang

ke shi wo zhi dao

zheng suo wei ben xing nan gai

ta you ta de zuo feng you ta de xing ge you ta de si xiang

wo guan bu liao

wo ye bu xiang guan

ming nian hui shi zen yang wo hen qing chu ming liao

jiu shi

bu hao

suo yi ne zhe ge yi jing wan quan xiang qing chu de wo jue ding bu yao zai qu li hui

rang suo you shi qing shun qi zi ran

ke neng jiang hui bi jiao hao

shi bu

jiang shi

xie xie

bu hao yi si zhe tai dian nao mei you zhong wen zhi xing

ke shi jin tian wo xiang yong hua yu

suo yi jiu jiang

kan dong de ren qing gao su wo rang wo zhi dao ni shi cong ming de

jia you ba wo

i miss you

2008-07-11T11:04:00.002+08:00

hey corn corn..im alrite..thx a lot a lot:)
decided to learn kungfu
and im bringing parang today

jia you everyone
exam im coming!

2008-07-10T20:52:00.000+08:00

PERVERT

doughnut is a nightmare

2008-07-05T14:32:00.002+08:00

awful 'SUMPTUOUS' doughnuts
but never mind..HA!

byebye me

2008-07-04T07:57:00.002+08:00

today staying at home..for what?DOUGHNUT
tomorrow hari koko
dunno how did i come up v the stupid doughnut idea
i've to make 900 doughnuts in a day time
gorgeous

life seemed to be hard for me
and i've got it all clear right now
my mind is 100% working fine
coming up to a realization
im just not the girl
i wasnt good enough to be better
wat i did wasnt enough
and im tired
i cant take the place
its far too hard for me
because im not the girl
im just one of the girls in the crowd
an ordinary one

please be strong
i know how much i miss u

2008-06-24T13:45:00.003+08:00

can someone pls tell me wat is wrong with me coz i have no idea why am i feeling so stupid right now she is so billion times better than me and why am i still continuing my stupid act and why is my stupid mind becoming stupider and stupider when day goes on i should jump out from this stupid box and look forward to a stupid future and stop my stupid dreams by thinking of something less stupid 2008 is a different year for me u noe why because it is a stupid year with stupid days passing with a stupid fast speed why am i saying this because i have not done a single stupid thing tt satisfies a stupid human like me and this is making me feeling stupider i know my friends are lovely and wonderful and fun but why am i feeling so stupid lonely when i have got nothing stupid to do waiting for the stupid time to pass and now continue she is so sweet and so much better than me and tt is what i can say because i am stupid and i am just a stupid girl and in this stupid year i had not have a stupid chance to have a one-to-one personal conversation with my girlfriend and this is the stupidest because this make me feel more and more stupid and i miss the days when we actually talked so much and why cant things be the same because of this stupid year and a stupid girl like me things are going so stupidly and i wonder why cant everything lessen its stupidness i dun want the stupid feeling because i hate being stupid useless and i am feeling so stupidly sad with stupid smiles and laughters on my stupid face every stupid single day

try yours

2008-06-22T19:50:00.002+08:00

found this from jiali's blog

A: you like to drink
B: you like people
C: you are really silly
D: you like to eat
E: you like to play with cats
F: you are dead sexy
G: you never let people tell you what to do
H: you have a very good personality and gook looks
I : easy to be with
J: people adore you
K: you're wild and crazy
L : everyone loves you
M: best kisser ever
N: best bf/gf anyone could ask for
O: easy to fall in love with
P: you are popular with all types of people
Q: you are hypocrite
R: fuckin crazy (in a fun way)
S: easy to fall in love with
T: awesome kisser
U: you really like to chill
V: you are not judgmental
W: you are very broad minded
X: you love sports
Y: best boy/girl friend anyone can ask for
Z: always ready

B: you like people
O: easy to fall in love with
N: best bf/gf anyone could ask for
H: you have a very good personality and gook looks
U: you really like to chill
I : easy to be with
M: best kisser ever
E: you like to play with cats
I : easy to be with

lol

2008-06-21T22:40:00.012+08:00

i'm learning to appreciate everything in my life

tomorrow will be better

2008-06-13T19:26:00.003+08:00

i told myself tt i will be strong
and im just so not

DEAR MISS WILEE
u're so my darling
tq for making my day brighter
tq for making me smile again
tq for ur tissue paper
tq for taking the loneliness away from me
u're mine
i'll never let u go
hugs:)

珍惜

2008-06-12T16:10:00.004+08:00

感觉很像一场梦

可是为什么不是梦

看到妈妈眼睛红红肿肿

我很心痛

她很坚强

她不想让我们担心

表面上很稳定

其实心里在流泪

我明白

可是我不知道要怎样安慰人

为什么

因为我烂

听到消息

我很想哭

看住爸爸很多秒

不会动

可是我没有

我跟我讲我要坚强

我不要让外婆难走

我不要让外婆担心

我要让外婆安心

最后一次见面是几时

上个礼拜

我

竟然没有听话

我

竟然那么固执

我

竟然那么自私

外婆你看到吗

对不起

我会照顾自己的

你要放心

我们会坚强

thank you grandma. i love you

hi im talking to u

2008-06-09T13:10:00.006+08:00

i noe blog is a place for ppl to shout out their bu shuang or watever
but please
there's a limit
pls dun simply post something tt might hurt the ppl who actually reads ur blog
u ll never noe how hurt ppl feel looking at alphabets tt u've typed
i noe u are very good and very brilliant and very expert in doing something
something like camp
but some ppl are not
they are learning
give ppl a chance to learn
ppl ll try to improve
u dunno how much ppl put their effort
so shut up
not shut up
is make ur post shorter and less hurtful
ur words are killing me
i felt the pain reading ur post
and
pls respect ppl
u ll never noe
mayb one day u ll need our help too
u ll never noe

帅的定义

2008-06-08T18:50:00.004+08:00

有时候
我觉得我很帅
为什么酱讲
我没有自恋
我只是真的认为我很帅
我很帅
因为我每次做一些我不该做的事
虽然我很明白我应该停止
我很帅
因为我每次让自己难堪
虽然我知道怎样让自己不难堪
我很帅
因为我让自己犯下同样的错误
虽然我清楚知道事情到最后不会有好的结果
我很帅
因为我让自己认为自己很幸福
虽然我什么也没有
我很帅
因为我每次让家人心痛
虽然我知道我做的东西很令人担心
我很帅
因为我每次都让人心碎
虽然别人把一切都给了我
我很帅
因为我觉得我很帅
虽然我知道没有人会同意我的看法
但是我还是会继续认为我是帅的

很固执很倔强的我
是不

超开心:):):)

2008-06-03T23:14:00.002+08:00

oh my god

im so badly injured

累了..这一次是真的.因为以前不够累

又是PERASAN的我

傻子一个

是不

无聊的时候

就找我聊天

伤心的时候

就找我谈心

不爽的时候

就找我诉苦

我

就只是静静听

然后

静静听

每一次爽的时候

就把我当透明

每一次开心的时候

我就没有存在的意义

我

就是一个玩具

夜市场LELONG的烂玩具

我

傻子一个

PERASAN的傻子一个

又是开心的一天

超开心

TO POLKA CAT

2008-06-03T05:33:00.003+08:00

im typing this post for my dearest wilee to gain her apology for calin her PIG

above are some polka cats tt i found

forgive me leer leer~

hugs:)

sat and sun

2008-06-02T07:53:00.002+08:00

sat
i went for la danza
TWISTER RANDOM was sooooooooooooooo great so cool
although they looked green
i recorded the video but lazy to put it up
anyway they're really vr vr good in poppin'
after tt i went home
then i went tuition
then i went to buy dinner for pbc ppl
then i went jj
to the camp
i owe jun an a song or a dance
lol
sorriee
continue
then we prepared something
then had meeting
then chatted quite a lot
then sushen chaiteng and me prepared the speech
then we learnt dance at arnd 12midnite
then i suggested to go play basketball
wilee wanted too
then su shen said we're crazy
after some time we went bathing
then we went sleeping
tq for kuok zhen's blanket
wilee got a lend frm him when i was asleep

sunday
i woke up at 5.30
and i asked wilee pig beside me whether wanna wake up or not
then we went to clean oursleves
then went dewan
then had green bean frm wilee's mummy
then we started to hav last minute preparation
then the camp started
and i skipped my tuition..er..again
then we played
i dun think the ppl had fun?
the whole kl bunch was so WRONG
they made our ppl feel sleepy
dunno
kinda sad
the camp wasnt a success one
anyway we learnt something
so
ya

SO

2008-05-31T08:01:00.001+08:00

:)
:(
*.*
=.=
^^
@.@
:}
:{
"."
+.+
!.!
~.~
:[
:]

....

today and tomoro

2008-05-27T21:54:00.002+08:00

today i went shopping
today i went for meeting
today i went dancing
today i went swimming
today i saw my idol
today i am happy

tomoro im going shopping v my mummy
tomoro im going to practise my dancing
tomoro im going to bake cake for my popo
tomoro im going to miss someone
tomoro im going to be happy

o

2008-05-24T14:16:00.002+08:00

im tired..really..i dun hav any energy to continue
i thought i would have it after exam
but no
i got more tired

st john..the whole shirt thing is not done yet.
and i dunno wat to do..
talking to the shop ppl i got lack of idea..
i dunno wat to choose
i cant make a choice
im scared
i scared ppl might not agree v me
and
i hate fakers
time is passing without a blink

chinese society thing..
the camping thing is like so near
one week
only one week
and ntg is done..
mayb there's something
but its still..

whenever i get pekcek of something
i still hav to keep on doing it
whenever i need a msg
my hp keeps quiet
whenever i need someone to be there for me
i stand alone

its tiring
im scared

i dunno wat to type
and i dunno wat am i typing..
im not emo
im just getting tired

breathe

2008-05-23T19:59:00.002+08:00

wow..faker faker faker
so angry!!
why can ppl be so fake..FAKE..I MEAN FAKEEEEEEEEEEE
@#^$%&^@^%@#&^#$&@^%$@*

gosh so angry..nvmind..dun spoil my holiday mood

its oveeeeeer

2008-05-23T14:54:00.002+08:00

kai xin!!zhong yu kao wan shi le:)
jin tian yong han yu pin yin..kan bu dong bu yao guai wo

jia qi lai le..gan jue hen shuang
shi bu?
ke shi you hao xiang you hen duo dong xi yao zuo..
you qi shi hua wen xue hui de camp..
dan xin la
ke shi ler
yao zhen zuo
yi ding yao ban dao hao hao!

zhong zhi jin tian jiu hen kai xin:)
jia qi kuai le!
ha

*i hope im doing the right thing:)

last day!!

2008-05-22T15:06:00.002+08:00

heeeeeehe..decided to update my blog
sheng xiu d

tomorrow chemi and sejarah..after tt no more..no more..i mean NO MORE..exam is going to end in 20+ hours time:)

todayy..mm..haa..not badd..hope i did welll..

ok..holiday coming..ll have more time to post..tq eve for being a loyal supporter to my blog:)
& mum says bro asked me to buy him his prom costume..
im gonna make him the HANDSOMEST boi of the nite..keeping up his prom king award!
wue.. .

ok everyone jia you!

hugs

* stay strong..i'll always be there for u:)

.

2008-05-17T23:41:00.002+08:00

life is suffering:)
things go wrong every minute every second:)

eerr

2008-05-10T19:48:00.003+08:00

oww another week over d..
lemme see
today..ntg much to talk abt
2moro stil got tuitions..

will update soon:)
jia you~

hugss

*facing a ppl making u happy and sad at the same time..wat will u do?

sigh..

2008-05-07T07:36:00.005+08:00

time passes too fast

day by day

people changes

things are turning in random

everything will never be the same again

sometimes we should just look forward

and never turn back

leaving the past a memory. a sweet memory

jia you!

2008-05-03T19:46:00.002+08:00

back frm tutuion..unlike last week..

this week im haappy..coz i see ntg:)

exam exam..everyone gambate~

TO POLKACAT: see u tmoro:)

hugss

haha..stupid

2008-05-02T19:42:00.004+08:00

你是男是女- --middle

你幾歲 -----16

談過幾次戀愛 -----aiyor

最深愛的人的名字 -----bon hui mei

喜歡長頭髮還是短頭髮 -----long

初吻幾歲 -----80

家裡有幾台電腦 -----3

你家是沙發椅嗎 -----erm

過年有要回鄉下嗎 -----yes

紅包希望有多少 ----- manei manei

拿了紅包後想做些什麼 -----buy exam paper from teacher

現在有暗戀對象嗎 -----err

接過詐騙集團的電話嗎 -----yes

最常聽什麼歌 -----pokemon theme song..lol

知道孔融讓梨這個故事嗎 -----yes..i love dinosaur

承上，你覺得孔融為何要讓梨 -----bcoz dinosaur dun eat fruit

朋友對你來說重要嗎 -----YES

當朋友和男/女朋友之間必須留下一個活口，會留誰？both..i vr tamak one

香蕉好吃嗎 ----- .. ya

有補習嗎 -----manei

最喜歡怎麼樣的天氣 -----rainny

週遭有誰讓你覺得心機很重 -----=X

網咖給你的感覺是… -----no idea

如果被食人族抓到不能做什麼事 -----wat a?

媽媽好還是爸爸好 -----sama sama=]

你是有錢人嗎 -----im desperate for money

生日什麼時候 ----17april

你累了嗎 -----no.

有在收看[V]嗎 -----nope

喜歡跳舞嗎 ----YES..tying to improve!!

最喜歡什麼動物 -----doggie

喜歡散步嗎 -----okok la

最喜歡去哪 -----angmo country

自認帥哥/正咩 ----lol

你姓什麼 -----chemical bond

最喜歡的歌手 -----mummy

和喜歡的人牽過手嗎 -----no

常微笑嗎 -----mayb

今天吃過早餐了嗎？-----yupp
　
豆漿濃嗎?----ya..

你相信法老的詛咒嗎?---yess

有開刀的經驗嗎?---noo

如果現在可以讓你去搶銀行，你會搶哪間?---scbb..looks vr rich

你第一次買的專輯，是誰的?----jolin?

你是正義還是邪惡?---im a baddie

歷史是什麼?---sejarah is my only wife

有想自殺過嗎?---yes

喜歡的顏色?----pink?or black..mayb white

找一首和夏天有關的歌曲?-----blank

海邊．．．你聯想到什麼?----mermaid

韓劇和日劇你喜歡哪種?-----korea

咖哩味大便和大便味咖哩，你想吃哪個?---wth

你認識的人有很娘娘腔的人嗎?----yesssssssssss..ew

你是大哥（大姐）還是小弟（小妹）?----youngest=]

你媽很兇嗎?----no

想開垃圾車在路上甩尾嗎?---haha

'３３'的英文?------thirty-three

部落格好玩嗎?---no bad

黃．綠．紅～你要哪一種?-----王力宏

海賊和山賊，你會想當哪個?------sea

收過最爛的聖誕禮物?---no idea

你喜歡的音樂類型?-------黄梅调

今天衣服什麼顏色------green

你習慣說”熊貓”還是”貓熊”?---first

你有認識很自戀的人嗎？-----yess

你會很色嗎?---no i guess

你會搞照片合成這一套嗎?---no

現在幾點了------8.21pm

找一首有關吃的歌曲?-----水果冰琪凌

現在很想罵髒話嗎？------no

你星期日晚上７：００看什麼節目?-------no idea

你滿意你的星座嗎？---yup

有沒有拍過靈異照片？---nola..aduhai

討厭小孩嗎？----nopee

你相信有尼斯湖水怪的存在嗎？-------i did

有曾經愛上不會有結果的人嗎？----sad

現在想唱哪首歌？-----水果冰琪凌

你舌頭舔得到鼻子嗎？-----noo

你長得像爸爸，媽媽，還是隔壁的老王?--------lao wang

想不想玩”命案現場遊戲”？------no

大海嘯來時，你會做什麼？-------oxygen tank and googles and my swimsuit

名字筆劃？-----30!

今天天氣如何?----super hot

吞劍，跳火圈，你要哪個？-----fire

被人打過巴掌嗎?--no

你最常用的一句成語？---hello kitty

exam

2008-05-01T10:31:00.002+08:00

im back!
actually not..coz im gonna get my head back in books again..

e-x-a-m-s.

aiyoh..good day people=]
all the best for exam pppl=]

hugss*

不爽!

2008-04-26T19:14:00.003+08:00

太伤了..真的..我觉得我的心在流血..每个星期六都是这样..同样的画面又出现在我眼前..可能我应该看着马路走路..或者干脆不要开眼睛..原本开开心心..觉得人生充满希望..现在...就酱..
如果现在前面有一百只蜗牛..我不会尖叫..因为我已经没有力气去管了..每次都这样..感觉真的很不爽..不爽!!!这就是自作自受的下场吧..惨不忍睹..可能是我自己PERASAN..太笨..想太多..把事情想到太完美..幼稚..以为自己在童话故事里..把结局想到太幸福..弄到自己酱悲惨..弄到自己酱狼狈..弄到自己酱辛苦..文慧梅..清醒吧..你只不过是一个无名小族..东西是别人的就是别人的..永远不会是你的..
今天早上去学校PIBG..领学校颁的PMR奖励金..觉得学校真的真的真的太有钱了..进了SSI第四年..才深深领悟这一点..全A的人RM50..乖的RM100..还有运动员..加起来几个人!100+..多咯..
还有昨天MSN开会..一日营的地点还是没有确定..日期也是..已经要年中了..酱下去不懂要怎样..真的很不希望华文学会就酱败在我们手上..应为我会很不甘心..
好想放一个很长很长很长的假..又想太美了..考试要到了..

我

2008-04-20T15:40:00.000+08:00

时间过得真的很快很快很快..为什么不能就暂停一下..几分钟就好..我会满足的..因为老师教过我做人要知足..酱才会快乐..是这样吗?一大清早就有补习..到一点才回到家..是有一点累..柽早上搭乘10.30的巴士上KL了..他没带小黑上去..又剩我们三小口..哈..我都说了..时间过到不眨眼..一个礼拜又酱过了..生日才刚过啊..拜四..哈..今年生日过到很糟糕..也不知道为什么..就没有生日的感觉吧..可能老了..庆祝生日的FEEL也少了..酱讲的话..明年的生日也是会一样咯..还是更糟糕?拜五哟..也没什么特别..拜六呢学校有健康跑..我没去啊..补习时敏说我们很健康了..所以不用去健康跑..听起来还真的很对..哈..过后补习出来看到了一些..有点小不爽..我.真的不喜欢做一些没有结果的东西..嗯..记得以前柽问过我一个问题..如果有一天一个人给要给你一个特异功能..你会选什么..那时就随口回答..因为觉得不重要..现在想起来这问题还真的值得三思..现在再问我同样的问题..我会希望能够知道人在想什么..酱就可以知道考试会出什么..不会每天去烦那些有的没的..可能就是这个原因..我们现代人越来越短命..所以我们要珍惜生命..做个好人..刚才烤面包..是我在被生下来以后第三次做面包..很肯定的这次不算成功..因为面包一出炉就惨遭批评..哎..雨停了..每个人都说雨过天晴..然后会看到彩虹..为什么每次我望出窗外只看到一片没有东西的蓝天

taken during chemistry tuition..my snail hand and her cat watch

v my dearest during mr andy's class

bread..

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2008-04-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks; they can be deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it only takes a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be; because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to.

Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other too.

A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.